''you said it once.
said it twice.
said it hurts,
but i'll do it again.
i don't change, i don't learn, cause i can't let it in..
i pull and you push and we cry,
until we laugh again.
so i'm thinking maybe.
you've made up your mind.
cause you're distant
and i can't stand to fight anymore. ''
if ever words like that appear before them, people assume it's a romance gone wrong.
but for me, at this moment.
it's between my family.
i admit it. i am;
temperamental.
i have issues.
and i'm never afraid to hold back, when it comes to my family.
they know me better than anyone else.
i can't be calm and collected when they're with me.
we fight. we argue. it drives me insane.
it's hard for me to show affection, it truly is.
and they suffer the consequences of it, especially my sister.
it's mainly because of the massive six year age difference, but it's also because even though i have time, there's no time for her. it's really hard for me to be close with her.
sometimes i wish i was different, that i could be very affectionate, but i just can't.
this is how i am.
and as a result, my family and i fight ALL the time.
it's usually my inability to sort things out rationally with them..
sometimes, they just get on my nerves sooooo much.
sometimes, i get on their nerves.
sometimes, the fights are inevitable.
but no matter what is said or done.
we'll always be together.
because that's just how we do.
okay so most of the time, they want me dead. but hey, the love is always there.
we're strange, we're different. and that's never going to change.
